NO I AM NOT HAPPY, NO I AM NOT GREATFULL!

OK, here I am with my mail of complain. I ma refairing to this nowadays philosophy which s trying to convice us that we all should be so happy because we are so lucky..like the book "the secret" which yes it is good, and true i must confess, but still not for all people!!

And YES I WILL COMPLAIN! I decided that there is nothing wrong with complaining. When everything are going fucking bad then yes..I WILL COMPLAIN! there are so many books, movies, philosophies which FORBIDS you to complain and OBLIGE YOU TO BE HAPPY no matter what. Because life works this way and if you do not feel greatfull and happy no mater what, your life is going to be ruined.

Well..I AM NOT FUCKING HAPPY! I HAVE NO REASON TO BE HAPPY! or no, let's be honest and admit that I have the love of my life and a loving family. However, I HAVE NO MONEY, no job, no social status, nothing mine. M e and my boyfriend we are renting a 20m room because it costs us 200 euro, and he has to work 9am-9pm every day and still he is full of depts to the banks. Not because he was mindless but because he dared to open his own job and of course because we live IN FUCKING GREECE THE WORST COUNTRY IN EU! Also because after 3 months he opened his own job the famous GLOBAL FINANCIAL CRISIS arrived. Why? BECAUSE WE ARE BOTH SO FUCKING UNLUCKY!

I am trying to find a job, I am searching via net and newspappers and friends and mouth to mouth but nothng..I m also searching abroad, but nothing...I have a honours degree and an MSc and I speak 2 languages and I am preparing for the 3rd...Why? BECAUSE WE ARE BOTH SO FUCKING UNLUCKY! BECAUSE THESE MOTHER FUCKERS WHO DO NOT GIVE A DAMN, AND THEY ARE COMPLAINING IN ALL THEIR LIVES BECAUSE THEY DO NOT HAVE ALL, THEY GET MORE AND MORE! BECAUSE THEY UNGREATFULL AND THE MISERY PEOPLE ARE GETTING ALL!Because I am tired beeing happy every fucking day. Pretend to be happy, and he as well. We are just to tired, to feel that if we dare to feel unhappy the life wil revenge us! Life is revenging us already!

WHAT THE FUCK HAVE WE DONE WRONG? we love each other and we r trying to make our own way with dignity. But nothing, NO FUCKING LUCK AT ALL! global crisis, an unable goverment, and things going from bad to worse in every step we make. And the worse is that we r not responsible for that! WE DID NOT CREATE THE GLOBAL CRISIS BECAUSE WE HAD BAD THOUGHTS!

I just want to come out and declare that NO I AM NOT FUCKING HAPPY! There is a new age movement which is trying to convice us that we are happy..well..I am wondering why in such times when few people stole all the money of all the Earth someone is trying to convice us that WE ARE ALL HAPPY!! NO I AM NOT HAPPY! NO, I AM NOT GREATFULL! I am for my health and for my love but THIS IS NOT ENOUGH! HERE I AM AND I SAY IT! AND YOU FUCKING LUCK CANNOT DO NOTHING WORSE TO ME BECAUSE U HAVE ALREADY FUCKED ME WITH ALL THIS MISFORTUNE ALL THESE YEARS AND YES!! I AM SO FUCKNG PISSED OF WITH YOU AND GO AND FUCK YOURSELF JUST LEAVE ME ALONE! I NEED NO LUCK! BUT I CERRTAINLY NEED NO MISFORTUNE, SO JUST LEAVE ME ALONE AND THE HELL WITH YOU!


Life sucks and Luck favors the ASSHOLES!
Niena